And to be perfectly honest the only thing in my life that I’m perfectly sure about is who I’m in love with, and who I wanna be with always. It’s rare that you can find someone that will stick with you through anything and I’m so so lucky
I’m sorry I’ve been such a failure to everyone.
I’m trying my hardest, I really am.
I know it doesn’t even seem like it but getting out of bed in the morning is the biggest challenge of the day for me.
And I’m sorry for that.
I’m sorry I’ve been so sad and I’m sorry I haven’t been myself. I’ve been letting everyone down.
I really don’t like that about myself. In fact, right now, I don’t like anything about myself.
And it’s not tragically beautiful. Depression isn’t beautiful. It’s ugly and it’s shameful and it’s suffocating and debilitating and I’m so sorry I can’t change myself. I really want to.